Might be one of the best videos of all time…and def. my second favourite Beastie Boys song (Intergalactic edges it out slightly because it has a LOT of memories attached to it, but I digress).
I always find myself at this weird point when it comes to weight loss. I lose about 5lbs and my resolve to just stick with good choices goes away. It’s a weird bit of self sabotage–because it ends with me gaining a bit of weight again, getting frustrated and then sometimes just giving up.
As an aside, this is where I feel like going on the scale is a bad thing for me, but, at the same time, when I don’t weight myself regularly, I find that my weight goes out of control. So I try to weight myself once every few days. Normally before the weekend, and after the weekend to keep myself somewhat accountable as weekends are always hard for healthy eating.
With a weekend of eating out a lot, I found myself being a bit lax on proper eating on Tuesday…eating a number of my Trader Joe’s S’mashing S’mores (oh why did I open that box last week), the last éclair of the batch I made, a square of salted dark chocolate my colleague offered me, and a quarter of a muffin. I’m not sure if it was a comfort thing, or an weird hungrier than normal thing, cravings, or a self sabotage thing..though toward the end of the night, when I popped two S’mashing S’mores, I felt this weird “defeat” vibe. Like it’s already been a crappy eating day, what’s another 120 calories.
And that’s stupid. For reals. Why I ate all that crap I have no idea. But unlike other times, when I just run my way out of it, or worse, just give up, I’m not going to. One can come back from a bad few days. I just need to be diligent, get back to eating when i’m hungry and not when I simply see and want food (so hard to do but so good for you), make smarter choices when I do eat and move more….oh and maybe not plunk myself down in front of a box of TJ’s S’mashing S’mores…despite how delicious they are. lol.
Man, I wrote S’mashing S’mores a LOT in this post…damn addictive and delicious things. But jokes aside, this self sabotage thing needs to stop. I need to build that inner resilience not bugger up my early success as it is the only way I will ever gain proper control of my weight once and for all.
Do you have troubles with self sabotage when it comes to weight loss or weight maintenance? Any tips? Let me know in the comments! 🙂