Pity Party- Table for One

Hey Lovelies!

I’m so frustrated with life right now…and it’s so silly that I’m feeling this way as I know that, at the end of the day, I’m very fortunate and have a roof over my head, food to eat, friends who love me and most importantly I’m running really well and completely injury free (except last night when I had a migraine and I ate all the pain away–score!). I’m super grateful for my blessings big and small (and even record them in a gratitude journal…) but lately it’s just not enough to keep my spirits high.

I feel like a frustrated, stagnant and mildly lifeless woman of late. I hate the fact that I am single, still…like always… while all of my friends are now married and currently riding the baby train.

Exactly!

This frustration is also permeating my dating mindset as many bad dates have skewed my view of them, seeing them less as a chance to meet someone new and more as time that would be better spent running, baking, sleeping or hanging with my friends. lol

I am not at all engaged in my work and I have no idea what I should be doing, could be doing, would enjoy doing. I’m not afraid of throwing it all away to go back to school, taking a pay cut or pursuing something new, I just don’t know what to do so I keep on the same, boring, well paying path.

Yep.

All of this is just feeding this mixed up undercurrent of snark, bitterness, jealousy in me that has started when I hit 30, but it’s really started to grow in the last months. I’m not enjoying it and I’m afraid that if I don’t act on it soon, it will become permanent… unfortunately though, I don’t know how to get rid of it.

Aside from speaking to someone (the search for someone has begun), does anyone else have any advice in terms of tackling some of these things?  I mean, other than quitting my job and finding a way to live full time in Disney World.

Much love and my apologies for a downer post!

~Princess Lisa

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8 thoughts on “Pity Party- Table for One

  1. Lady, we’ve all been there. And the best part, these bad feelings will pass and be replaced by other feelings.

    It’s rough to go out and date and meet not awesome dudes. On my good days I realize that the bad ones need to be there so the good ones will stand out. Alas, the ones that pop are few and far between. At least in my experience and even when they’re alright, it doesn’t mean it always works out.

    Still, you know you’re lucky, etc but today just isn’t the day to celebrate that. And that’s ok too. So many times we think we have to be upbeat but when you feel like crap, I say just feel like crap.

    Feel better tomorrow and wallow today. Hugs buddy.

  2. IF it puts things a little bit better perspective for you…I was married for 14 years. 14! To the WMSCP (the world’s most self-centered pr*ck, you fill in the blank.) It took me that long to figure it out, so what does THAT tell you? Ugh. Life didn’t REALLY start for me until I turned 39 and met the guy I was SUPPOSED to be with. Long story short, life doesn’t always go the way you want it, when you want it. But when you least expect it – WHAM! Knocks you on your dupa (in a good way) and all the crap leading up to that moment is suddenly a distant memory. You can’t speed it up, you can just make your life the best it can be. And fill it with lots of good stuff that you’ll be happy to look back on later on. Like LOTS of Disney races! 🙂

  3. I’m with Jenn, let’s just all move to Disney World!

    Unfortunately, I’ve been there with the dating situation/am there with the job situation and I sadly have no advice how to make you feel better because, well, if I knew, I would be able to fix me too!

    So, yeah, basically, we go back to the original plan of moving to Disney World!

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