…And Life Got In The Way

Hey there.  Long time, no see!…er…speak, I guess.  There is a whole heap of “stuff” that I should be tackling at this moment, but I felt like I needed to come here and just brain dump for 15 minutes.  I have this guilt – I haven’t been running…I haven’t been working out…I haven’t been blogging about running or working out…I haven’t been blogging about anything, period.  Life has gotten in the way lately, and it’s been really frustrating.  Everything is raining down at once – family visits from both sides, hosting a bachelorette party and prepping to be in that wedding, working, teaching dance, picking up a second part-time job, sorting out work-related changes and drama, trips out of town, dog having seizures…the list goes on and on.  And I know the things that keep me grounded and sane – running, working out, eating right, having a neat and tidy schedule, blogging – are the things that I need most of all right now to keep some order in my life.  But I just can’t seem to make time or energy for them.

So, extra junk has come up that needs to happen right after work?  Fine.  Could I switch my bootcamp to 6am, or 730pm to still fit it in?  Absolutely.  But have I?  No.  Instead, I have pretty much bailed on all physical activity for the past 2 weeks, because by the time I’m done all the “need to do”s in my day, even the thought of getting up, dressed, and out the door to do anything else is completely exhausting.  I just have way too many balls in the air, and it’s making me sad, and I feel like my usual coping mechanisms are failing.  I have a race scheduled for June 1, with a friend who is faster than me, and I just bought a new training plan from Run The Edge, which I am really excited about trying!  But am I running? No.  I have a photo shoot scheduled at the end of May with my photog friend, which I am also excited about.  But am I eating well and dropping those 10 lbs of winter bulk? No.  Instead of using these “look forward to”s as motivation, and doing any of the good prep things that I would normally do, I’m sulking on the couch, I’m buying healthy groceries which I then ignore in favor of takeout and ice cream, I’m going to bed late, I’m drowning myself in coffee instead of water….  It’s just a perpetual cycle of blah right now, and something’s gotta give.  I need even just ONE of these “issues” that I’m working on to have a breakthrough moment, to solve itself or present a way forward.  And then I feel like I could make sense of the rest.

Ugh.  Just ugh.  It’s a weekfull of ugh.

xoox
Princess Lindsey

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13 thoughts on “…And Life Got In The Way

    • Good quote, I do need to remember that. And no judgement on the nerd-ism! You know what I did today at lunch? Put on my running gear, and ran…to the comic book store, to pick up this week’s must-haves! 🙂

  1. I think first off, you need to give yourself a break.

    I’ve been currently waylaid in the physical activities department (injury) and am annoyed by it but trying my best to fill my hours with other things. Unfortunately that leads to a lot of eating and drinking so I’m feeling a bit soft all over.

    That said, it sounds like you have a lot of time consuming but fairly good “life” stuff happening – entertaining friends and family can be exhausting but it can also be a good thing.

    At the end of the day, you just sound pooped and that’s ok. But you feeling “guilty” about not being able to do that “extra” thing is just faulty. It’s not fair to you and what your body and mind are telling you at the moment. Two weeks off is nothing in the grand scheme. And sure you can wake up earlier or do this or do that but you’re TIRED. And that’s OK.

    Drop this whole guilt about working out from your mind and concentrate on what needs to be done, life wise and when the time opens up or you’re more energized, you’ll fit it all back in again.

    Worry not…it’s just the ebb and flow of life.

    • It’s strange for me because, as runners and athletic people in general, we’re used to feeling physical exhaustion. But right now it’s backwards – the body is willing and wanting, but the mind is like “nope, ain’t nobody got focus for that.” I thank someone – God, Mother Nature, Queen Elsa, whomever – that the sun has come out this week because it’s at least helping my mood! As are all you friends, who are reminding me to take a breath and “Let It Go.”

  2. two weeks? that’s it? Lindsey, are you seriously beating yourself up over not working out for two weeks? Just do whatever you feel like doing, and if for now that’s nothing, then it’s nothing. Eventually, you’ll feel like it again and when you do you’ll get back to doing something, and if it’s not running or bootcamp but something else, that’s cool. You’ll be fine. And then we’ll peer pressure you into doing the marathon at Disney in January with us in 2015 and it’ll be AWESOME.

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  4. I know exactly how you feel. I keep registering for races with the hopes that it will help motivate me to run, but the reality is, I wasn’t running for the last 3 half marathons I did. That’s a really BAD a rut. Life gets in the way. Don’t kill yourself over 2 weeks. One day, you’ll find the time and then slowly but surely you’ll find more time and get back into the swing of things. Good luck! 🙂

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