To say I have been feeling out of sorts this week is an understatement at best.
I’m trying to move onward and upward…but it has been a struggle. Being exhausted on so many levels combined with a level of sadness and loss I have never experienced…well, it messes with you. My focus is non existent….and I really have no idea what to do with myself. I want to be with people, but I want to be alone. I want to run, but I also want to sleep.
I did finally get in a half decent run in last night. 3 miles at an 8:12 pace. It was exhausting, but it felt good to move. I hope to get in 4 miles tonight…after all, I have 4 races in the next two months, ranging from 5K to a half marathon.
I have also been commissioned to do some cupcakes for my friend’s husband’s 30th birthday–my St. Paddy’s special…Guinness Chocolate Cupcakes with Jameson Whiskey Chocolate ganache filling and Bailey’s Irish Cream frosting. I look forward to making them as I find baking to be very therapeutic, but also, it will keep my mind focused on things other than feeling sad. P.S. If you want the recipe, you can find it on Smitten Kitchen’s food blog. It’s an amazing recipe–even if you don’t like Guinness, these are to die for.
Thanks again for all the blogger friends who offered such kind words of support upon hearing of the loss of my grandfather–it meant the world to me.