At Peace

My Gramps finally passed away on Monday afternoon after a week in the hospital.

Despite my deep sadness, I feel at peace with letting him go as I got to say goodbye, give and get one last hug and kiss and help soothe him with Johnny Cash when the pain was too much.

I will miss him in many ways I cannot even begin to fathom now, but my focus moving forward is on my grandma.  They were together for 62 years of marriage and her grief is on a level that I cannot begin to comprehend.  As a result, my priority is being there for my grams, no matter what she needs.

I also plan on working to heal myself, too.  This last week has taken a bit of a toll, but I know that, slowly but surely, I will be back in action really soon.  I went to the gym for the first time since my gramps fell ill last night.  I only ran a mile, but it was a meaningful one as it’s the first mile back to feeling healthy and normal again.

My goals for my upcoming races are no longer about PRs, rather they are about finishing and finishing strong, happy and injury free.  I will race with thoughts of my grandpa, knowing he would’ve loved to see the finisher medals when I was done.

Take care, hug the ones you love most and run happy,

~Princess Lisa



17 thoughts on “At Peace

  1. Sending my love and condolences. My grandmother actually passed this week around the same time and it is a very strange feeling. I really enjoyed reading your post about your time spent with him at the hospital. It was very sweet that you were both able to spend that special time together.

  2. I am so sorry to hear this 😦 My grandfather passed away yesterday (I’ll be writing about it tomorrow) and it’s so incredibly sad to go through. Working out is the only thing keeping me together. I’m so scared for the funeral because it will be so sad – none of us got to say goodbye and we’re all a mess. I am so sorry for your loss and just know that I know what you’re going through and while nothing I say can make it better, just know that he is in a better place and he would want you to be able to keep running. I love the idea of dedicating a run to him, that sounds like a lovely way to honor his memory. I hope you feel better soon!

    • Thanks so much, Kristen. I actually just commented on your post. I’m so sorry to hear of your loss as well. How unfortunate that both of our families lost such great men this week.

      I can’t imagine how hard the funeral will be for your grandfather. I hope that your family can all support one another through this hard time and come out closer and stronger and that you all can find some comfort in the happy memories you share of your grandfather. Doing that has helped me and my family get through this tough time and I hope that it can help you guys, too.

      Sending you many hugs through the interwebs, my friend. I hope you feel better soon, too.

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